Believe in Me

Three months, it’s not a long time for me to know her. She is beautiful and have a nice personality. She is Naya, a simple name for a beautiful girl and I have been interested with her since the first day in eleventh class. I have never known her before though we were in the same school. One day when she walked alone in front of me, suddenly I felt something in my heart. I just didn’t know whether it was love or not. I just couldn’t explain what I felt at that time

I never thought about her anymore until I saw her again when I went to my  friend’s class, beside my class. I met ubay to ask him accompany me to the bookstore. Suddenly, I saw Naya. She was sitting and read the book. I occasionally looked at her when I was talking with Ubay. I stared at her for while. I talked to my heart that she was a very quite person. I was really curious about her. I wanted to know much about her. I was so eager to be closer with her.

Two days later after I met her at Ubay’s class, I tried to look for her mobile number. Fortunately, my friend, lia, had her number. In the night, I sent her short message. Actually, when I sent her message, I never thought that she would reply me. It was a surprise for me when I read her message in my phone. Then I told her about myself. It was the second surprise for me, she knew me. I was so happy at that time. How lucky I was. After that, I started to ask more and more about her. Then I realized that she was a nice person and really fun to talk with.

My story with her just didn’t via short message but at school either. My introduction to her via short message made me often talked to him at school. May be a week I know her and we often sent the short message. Much time lost just because often sent the short message with her every day, but she was exciting for me and I liked her.

The time went on and we have been closer, my feel to her have different. May be this was love. I hoped it right. Two months I have done closer to her. Was she like to me? I hope so. At night, I tried to said my feeling to her. I started to enter the beautiful words until I said love to her. and then I called her, she picked up it. I tried to repeat the words which I told her via short message. she was silent and wordless. She shut off her phone. I think she was thinking with real or was she not ready??

And on the next day, I came to her class. I sat down beside her. I asked her again. Slowly she began to answer my question. Saying that I was waiting finally completed. But reality didn’t agree with my expectations. She could not accept because she hesitated. I didn’t know why, it made me confused. She left me without giving clear reasons. Many days, I tried to find information about her from her friends. Until at last I knew, she ever felt a broken heart. She dated for three years. She has to accept a tender when her boyfriend had another girlfriend. This was what made him upset. Lots of boys who approach them but they disappointed because Naya reject them.

This didn’t make me became weak. I still tried to make her believe that I was a boy, and could trust and allegiance. I have several times said if I was different from ex-boyfriend. I was a boy who loved you and would never make you disappointed. During the first month and assured her, I was struggling to get her heart. She remained close to me but she still could not accept me as her boyfriend.

Until now my struggle will never be tired. I still will always try to pursue her love. May be she can not accept me at this time but at the another day, I’m sure if she will can accept me. My struggle is not enough until in here, because I was born a boy, my life will always be full of challenges.