Three months, it’s not a long time
for me to know her. She is beautiful and have a nice personality. She is Naya,
a simple name for a beautiful girl and I have been interested with her since
the first day in eleventh class. I have never known her before though we were
in the same school. One day when she walked alone in front of me, suddenly I
felt something in my heart. I just didn’t know whether it was love or not. I
just couldn’t explain what I felt at that time
I never thought about her anymore
until I saw her again when I went to my friend’s class, beside my class. I met ubay to
ask him accompany me to the bookstore. Suddenly, I saw Naya. She was sitting
and read the book. I occasionally looked at her when I was talking with Ubay. I
stared at her for while. I talked to my heart that she was a very quite person.
I was really curious about her. I wanted to know much about her. I was so eager
to be closer with her.
Two days later after I met her at
Ubay’s class, I tried to look for her mobile number. Fortunately, my friend,
lia, had her number. In the night, I sent her short message. Actually, when I
sent her message, I never thought that she would reply me. It was a surprise
for me when I read her message in my phone. Then I told her about myself. It was
the second surprise for me, she knew me. I was so happy at that time. How lucky
I was. After that, I started to ask more and more about her. Then I realized
that she was a nice person and really fun to talk with.
My story with her just didn’t via short message
but at school either. My introduction to her via short message made me often talked to
him at school. May be a week I know her and we often sent the short message. Much
time lost just because often sent the short message with her every day, but she
was exciting for me and I liked her.
The time went on and we have been
closer, my feel to her have different. May be this was love. I hoped it right. Two
months I have done closer to her. Was she like to me? I hope so. At night, I
tried to said my feeling to her. I started to enter the beautiful words until I
said love to her. and then I called her, she picked up it. I tried to repeat
the words which I told her via short message. she was silent and wordless. She shut off
her phone. I think she was thinking with real or was she not ready??
And on the next day, I came to her
class. I sat down beside her. I asked her again. Slowly she began to answer my
question. Saying that I was waiting finally completed. But reality didn’t agree
with my expectations. She could not accept because she hesitated. I didn’t know
why, it made me confused. She left me without giving clear reasons. Many days,
I tried to find information about her from her friends. Until at
last I knew, she ever felt a broken heart. She dated for three years. She has to
accept a tender when her boyfriend had another girlfriend. This was what made
him upset. Lots of boys who approach them but they disappointed because Naya
reject them.
This didn’t make me became weak. I still
tried to make her believe that I was a boy, and could trust and allegiance. I have
several times said if I was different from ex-boyfriend. I was a boy who loved
you and would never make you disappointed. During the first month and assured
her, I was struggling to get her heart. She remained close to me but she still
could not accept me as her boyfriend.
Until now my struggle will never be
tired. I still will always try to pursue her love. May be she can not accept me
at this time but at the another day, I’m sure if she will can accept me. My struggle
is not enough until in here, because I was born a boy, my life will always be
full of challenges.
